I will fail soon, and I want to fail too. I am being honest, I want to. Shall I tell you the reason why? Because I know that's the only thing going to turn up now, and I am giving in to it even before it happened. Th first time I realized it was the 31st of December, 2009, and I got ceaselessly frustrated at that. I did everything that I have never done before, and never even thought of doing before. Now as time passes by, and try coping up with the fact that my destiny is taking a plunge to a tougher time ahead, and some more failures, some more frowning faces of itself, I get so obstinately obsessed by all of those. I want to face it, in utter desperation, and I want to get away with it. Am I not sounding like the teenager who killed his parents just to get a heck of it, and to see that he can get away with it? It's an insane phase of mind. And it's a messy post. I write it with utter truth, and I want to stop regretting for it....