I am not a fatalist, though I believe that there are certain happenings around us which are out of our control. Karma, as I perceive it, is the cause (not necessarily deterministic, but probabilistic) behind what's happening to us. But sometimes we face failures or mishappenings in an unbearably proximate interval of time and start believing "perhaps the time is bad for me". We resort to prayer and contemplation to gather the strength to put up through it and finally move on, and may be rectify ourselves.
Not that I have not undergone this bad patch before, and I know that I have learned to move on quickly, but this time it is taking a while to gather myself back in place. This morning, after learning of the recent-most "mishap" with me, my confidence was shattered. I am carefully using past tense here, although I cannot boldly claim that I have regained my confidence back. But I have come in terms with myself that certain things are out of my control, and this is one of those, or even if it is not, I cannot do anything about it right now. I have to accept things as they turn up, and make my way through it. I do not know if I will be able to or not, but a ray of hope is still around me - you know the kind of hope that you feel when you are so dejected that you don't see a way out other than putting up through it and making the best out of what's in hand, and you feel a desperate urge to face it (and may be win over it)!!
Perhaps, this hope is my Karma, the reason behind every tomorrow I make and every bad patch I overcome. It is the biggest strength I would always treasure. I pray to whoever or whatever is source of this hope (even if it is my inner-self), to never let this go off my side.
P.S. Another bad news followed today evening, followed by an unwanted conversation. I want this day to end soon...
Not that I have not undergone this bad patch before, and I know that I have learned to move on quickly, but this time it is taking a while to gather myself back in place. This morning, after learning of the recent-most "mishap" with me, my confidence was shattered. I am carefully using past tense here, although I cannot boldly claim that I have regained my confidence back. But I have come in terms with myself that certain things are out of my control, and this is one of those, or even if it is not, I cannot do anything about it right now. I have to accept things as they turn up, and make my way through it. I do not know if I will be able to or not, but a ray of hope is still around me - you know the kind of hope that you feel when you are so dejected that you don't see a way out other than putting up through it and making the best out of what's in hand, and you feel a desperate urge to face it (and may be win over it)!!
Perhaps, this hope is my Karma, the reason behind every tomorrow I make and every bad patch I overcome. It is the biggest strength I would always treasure. I pray to whoever or whatever is source of this hope (even if it is my inner-self), to never let this go off my side.
P.S. Another bad news followed today evening, followed by an unwanted conversation. I want this day to end soon...
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