I am thinking of writing tidbits about my India trip this time for a while, but somehow it wasn't happening so far. So I resolved on penning down whatever I can think of right away.
Firstly - bad news - I have a very high fever, cough, body aches blah blah that is screwing up my plans of going out with my mom. Grrrrrr!!!
It's been a plain, uneventful trip so far. Nothing at my home has changed much since I visited last time. But there is a huge change in our lives that came in the form of the bundles of joy - my sister's twin baby boy and baby girl. They are just so unbelievably cute and adorable. Their tiny little faces, amusing antics, cries and tantrums are all over our lives now. Our lives revolve around these kids now. I have already decided to visit India one more time before the end of this year, or atleast before next March, even if it is a short trip. I can't miss seeing them grow up and I want to make the most out of whatever chances I get to see them.
Another reason I want to visit India more often is my parents. They surely miss me a lot, and they would feel very lonely in this big empty house. I realized that I need to give more time to my mom especially, even when I am away. But then again I recollected that I have this same realization every time I visit home, but somehow the initial enthusiasm of frequent phone calls and emails and videochats in course of daily hustle bustle and hectic workload. I need to make more conscious efforts to overcome this.
I have been home mostly except for a few times that I visited a couple of relatives, shopping malls, restaurants. BTW, I got my Visa done for next 5 years... yay!! I applied for interview waiver, but got a 221g which summoned me for an interview following which my Visa was immediately granted.
I haven't yet visited any friend, in fact hardly even spoke to them. Somehow I am just liking being around my family, being at home. I never go out alone :-( However I intend to visit my school, college street bookstores, some other shops myself once I come round this irritating fever.
Anyway, one of the uncles made my day by gifting me Rabindranath's selected quotes - I was elated to see that other than my parents, someone else actually remembered to buy something for me when I was away and keep it for gifting me later. Made me feel so happy.
Although I usually refuse gifts, but I have to admit that I love getting gifts. Shamelessly enough though I have to again admit that I usually gift people more often (mostly without any occasion) and hardly get any gifts myself. It's mostly like small gestures to show that you are remembered. So when I get any, no matter what it is, I feel special :-)
On the other hand, lot is going in my mind regarding work and other things. Firstly I am aware that I am deferring job applications. My advisor has given me a golden opportunity of enrolling in Summer, and I should make full use of it starting as soon as possible. But it is just not happening. Although I am doing some paper/thesis related work, I haven't restarted my application and interview preparations yet. That sucks and I feel awful when I think of it, as it is indeed a long procedure. But I am just not able to put in the time that is required, specially given the kids, family, fever, hanging out, paper and thesis related work blah blah around.
I have decided to switch myself off people unless I get rid of all the bitterness inside. I don't want to lose people just because I am soar. I prefer taking a break and I hope things will be better in due time. Sometimes some time and space are really essential. I am applying this policy to almost each and everyone in my life right now. I need to detoxify my system and focus on things that can help me restore some positive energy.
That reminds me, being home has gotten me back to some nice books I left here. I am not reading a lot, but still I am reading some like Interpreter of maladies, Bani Basu's short story collections etc. I bought a couple of books, one being Jumpa Lahiri's "Unaccustomed Earth". And oh yeah, I found some really old family photographs. It is always blissful to revisit and recollect old memories. Olden days..... aaaahhhhh!!!!
That's it from me as of now. I will write more about the babies and other stuff soon. Need to take some rest now. Good day folks
~ Neelanjana
P.S. Somehow I am feeling good to have written a light hearted post where I wrote about whatever came to my mind. I should do this more often!
Firstly - bad news - I have a very high fever, cough, body aches blah blah that is screwing up my plans of going out with my mom. Grrrrrr!!!
It's been a plain, uneventful trip so far. Nothing at my home has changed much since I visited last time. But there is a huge change in our lives that came in the form of the bundles of joy - my sister's twin baby boy and baby girl. They are just so unbelievably cute and adorable. Their tiny little faces, amusing antics, cries and tantrums are all over our lives now. Our lives revolve around these kids now. I have already decided to visit India one more time before the end of this year, or atleast before next March, even if it is a short trip. I can't miss seeing them grow up and I want to make the most out of whatever chances I get to see them.
Another reason I want to visit India more often is my parents. They surely miss me a lot, and they would feel very lonely in this big empty house. I realized that I need to give more time to my mom especially, even when I am away. But then again I recollected that I have this same realization every time I visit home, but somehow the initial enthusiasm of frequent phone calls and emails and videochats in course of daily hustle bustle and hectic workload. I need to make more conscious efforts to overcome this.
I have been home mostly except for a few times that I visited a couple of relatives, shopping malls, restaurants. BTW, I got my Visa done for next 5 years... yay!! I applied for interview waiver, but got a 221g which summoned me for an interview following which my Visa was immediately granted.
I haven't yet visited any friend, in fact hardly even spoke to them. Somehow I am just liking being around my family, being at home. I never go out alone :-( However I intend to visit my school, college street bookstores, some other shops myself once I come round this irritating fever.
Anyway, one of the uncles made my day by gifting me Rabindranath's selected quotes - I was elated to see that other than my parents, someone else actually remembered to buy something for me when I was away and keep it for gifting me later. Made me feel so happy.
Although I usually refuse gifts, but I have to admit that I love getting gifts. Shamelessly enough though I have to again admit that I usually gift people more often (mostly without any occasion) and hardly get any gifts myself. It's mostly like small gestures to show that you are remembered. So when I get any, no matter what it is, I feel special :-)
On the other hand, lot is going in my mind regarding work and other things. Firstly I am aware that I am deferring job applications. My advisor has given me a golden opportunity of enrolling in Summer, and I should make full use of it starting as soon as possible. But it is just not happening. Although I am doing some paper/thesis related work, I haven't restarted my application and interview preparations yet. That sucks and I feel awful when I think of it, as it is indeed a long procedure. But I am just not able to put in the time that is required, specially given the kids, family, fever, hanging out, paper and thesis related work blah blah around.
I have decided to switch myself off people unless I get rid of all the bitterness inside. I don't want to lose people just because I am soar. I prefer taking a break and I hope things will be better in due time. Sometimes some time and space are really essential. I am applying this policy to almost each and everyone in my life right now. I need to detoxify my system and focus on things that can help me restore some positive energy.
That reminds me, being home has gotten me back to some nice books I left here. I am not reading a lot, but still I am reading some like Interpreter of maladies, Bani Basu's short story collections etc. I bought a couple of books, one being Jumpa Lahiri's "Unaccustomed Earth". And oh yeah, I found some really old family photographs. It is always blissful to revisit and recollect old memories. Olden days..... aaaahhhhh!!!!
That's it from me as of now. I will write more about the babies and other stuff soon. Need to take some rest now. Good day folks
~ Neelanjana
P.S. Somehow I am feeling good to have written a light hearted post where I wrote about whatever came to my mind. I should do this more often!
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