Surprisingly, it has been a better time since I blogged last time. There's a bit of hope, a ray at the end of the tunnel. But time has taught me to be patient, and wait till I see the light. Time has also taught me that every ending is always a new beginning. Anyway, I am calmer than last night.


But something else turned up. Another nightmare, another clear and realistic one. Third in about one week and second with the same subject matter. I spoke to my mom about it. I am kind of worried about things back home. I asked them to take care.


As summer approaches faster, I see more clearly that I can't make it to home this summer. Not anytime before I defend my dissertation, I guess. From somewhere at the bottom of my heart, a longing for home and family is occupying my thoughts at awkward times. I am not the faint-hearted homesick kinds, and I never shed a tear when I leave home. But it would be nice to get back to my people sometime soon. Two years is too long a time.


Should stop all these thoughts and stop being sentimental. For God's sake, I have my PhD comprehensive tomorrow which is right now giving me butterflies in stomach!!